Lecture Blues!!!

Well, so far I have lectured thrice. All are unsuccessful, compared to Mr C.

1st lecture: Too nervous. Keep talking in circles. Felt super-unsatisfied with myself. Force myself to prepare much more for the lecture.

2nd lecture: Too well-prepared that I know everything that is to be said. End up talking like bullet train. The train ran so fast that all the students cannot get on it. Shouted in the mic because of the high noise level in the LT. Made a co-worker to start having headaches. Oops!!!

3rd lecture: Did not prepare as much as 2nd lecture. Keep reminding myself to be slower and SOFTER. Have been successful in doing so, hence should be a success? No, it wasn't meant to be. Feedback is that I sounded boring and can drive students to sleep. Zzz.

I don't think anyone who can beat me in having so many variety of lecturing styles. Maybe students will spread we have a super lousy lecturer in Chem - me! He sometimes talked super fast, sometimes talked super slow. I even have one student that I know who is supposed to be in another LT appearing in my LT to see how I lecture. I realised it 15 mins into the lecture, and I chased him out of the LT. I asked the other lecturer whether he got notice that student (he also know that student), he said no! So it could mean that after getting chased by me, he is unable to join the other LT because of it is 15 mins into the lecture. If it is so, I feel so bad. I am going to ask the student whether he went for the other lecture.

Sigh! Hard to be a good lecturer. Hard to be on pace, interesting and fun at the same time. Maybe it is just the subject. Maybe it is me.